Thursday, February 26, 2009


I have one thing to say for now then I'm off to read.

I bought a new camera today, I am so excited...I can't wait to take pictures of things to show you all how good it works...yyaahhh for me!!

Wednesday, February 18, 2009

The Faith

I just finished reading a book called The Faith by Charles Colson and Harold Fickett. I got this book for Christmas and it was really good. I just finished reading it because I have this bad habit of reading like 5 books at a time so it takes me a while to get through one.
Anyways I wanted to share the last two paragraphs with you because I thought that they were good ones.

"And Christianity is, decidedly, an other-directed religion, as the Danish philosopher Soren Kierkengaard often wrote. By the very character of what we believe in our orthodox faith, we don't want to force beliefs down a person's throat; rather, we're perfectly willing to lay our lives down for others as Chinese Christians did amid the cultural revolution's madness, as Christ did for us.
Christianity does not seek to impose, it proposes. The Gospel is the great proposal; Come to the wedding feast, one and all-black, white, rich, poor, East, West, Muslim, Jew, Christian-all are welcome and it's never too late. God turns no man or woman away, not one. Through His son, Jesus Christ, the Father brings us into His kingdom. This is the promise He holds out to individuals and nations alike, a kingdom not of eating or drinking or of marching armies and clashing swords, but a Kingdom of righteousness, peace and joy forever in the Holy Spirit."

If you like to read, well even if you don't, I suggest this book, it was really interesting.

Until next time....


So pretty much I took Mucinex this morning because I was all congested and it was nasty. Well anyways, it worked which I like, but it also made me feel like I was on drugs. Which really isn't a good thing. Like if I take tylenol PM it makes me wired instead of tired, I guess that is what this stuff does to me too. At least my house is clean, and cameron probably learned a lot of words today because I have been talking and talking and talking to him.

I feel like I drank 4 pots of coffee. Anyways, I will never take that again.

Tuesday, February 17, 2009


I was looking at random things on the internet because...well just because. I came upon this cool little starburst. I remember having these things on a stick when I was little and you could blow on them and watch them spin. I don't think you could do that with this one, but it would be pretty to put it on a gift or something.

Monday, February 16, 2009

Computer Mouse

So pretty much my computer has been down for two days because my mouse has been broken. For some reason my computer decided no longer to recognize it. It's been half nice half annoying. I did realize that I prob. spend too much time on here when my kids are sleeping.

However, obviously I did go buy a mouse today. Funny story though, I go to the mall to look for an over the shoulder bag (which I couldn't find), so I run into radio shack and buy a mouse. On my way out I see Krisma, Chrissy and Jenni and we go into Rue 21 and then get pizza. Then we go into Ross so I could get a laundry hamper james wanted. While I was looking around I realized I no longer had my mouse bag. So we go everywhere we just were and look for it. It is no where to be found. (Kind of makes me dissapointed in the human race).
Anyways, I had to go back to radio shack, buy another mouse, and pretty much the guy ringing me up for the second time thinks my little error is quite hillarious, so he pretty much tells the entire store, he talked so loud.

It was quite a funny experience, thankfully I do things like this all the time so James just pretty much laughed about it. I love my husband for understanding that sometimes im ditzy :)

Thursday, February 12, 2009

A pile of Sugar

So today my kids decided to have a sugar adventure and dumped an entire bag in the kitchen floor. Then they decided they would play with it, in their hair, in their diapers, it looked like they had snow all over them. After the initial frustration of figuring out how I was going to get small granules of sugar out from all over my house, we laughed and then we threw it in the air and let it rain down on our heads. It actually made me pretty happy...

I now have to figure out how to clean it up. Thankfully I'm young and patient <3

Wednesday, February 11, 2009


Can't Sleep...thought I would write...But I don't really have anything to say...
Oh my husband got his haircut..he looks cute :)
The kids were a little wild today, but we made it through...
I don't know why I can't sleep...I hate it...
I can't wait till Friday..It will be fun!!
Sat. is Valentines day...I don't think we are doing's okay though
I should prob. try to lay down and sleep...
Good night


San Fransisco

Pretty Much my favorite place to get away. All the diverse people walking around, all the little shops to go to, I love it. My sisters mom and I are going on the 28th and I couldn't be more excited. I have not been there since December of 07' That is way too long.

We are going to take the ferry from vallejo to san fran so we don't have to drive across the bridge. Then we are going to go to some thrift stores..It's going to be fun!! I never really get to hang out with my sisters and mom all at the same time so it will be nice.

Anyways just wanted to say I was super excited...and hopefully the anxiety attacks will be non existent on that day..


Tuesday, February 10, 2009


This is a ton of pictures from 03' to 07'. I was just looking at them on my computer. Thought I would share. Don't mind me back in the day, I looked funny :)

Suzanne and Cameron is 06'
Me is High School 04'
Me In High School 03'
Me a Really long time ago...I think 03'
High School 04'
Katherine and I cutting down a tree 06'
Me 05'
James and I first time going to beach together 06'
My super cool new family <3 06'
James Cameron and I 06'
James and I 06' ( He forced me to walk in the wilderness to cut down a tree)
I look funny with my rubber boots 06'
Funny again 06'
Cameron's first day of daycare 06' (Thankfully he didn't have to go long)
Little Tiny Leilani

Care Team Meeting

Well my care team meeting went pretty well tonight, besides the anxiety attacks. We are going to start giving a care basket to a family once a month with stuff in it to cook a meal with dessert. It's exciting, I love helping people.
Too bad I still have anxiety and it sucks. Someday they will pass...hopefully,. I was actually going to call someone and tell them I couldn't make the meeting tonight and if they could run it. Too bad I had the agenda's and no one else could really run it.

I am glad I went though, it turned out good. Hopefully Leilani will sleep tonight, my super wonderful in laws let us borrow their humidifier, hopefully it works.

can you believe it

Two acts of child molestation in today's' paper. Sometimes I really can not believe this world, and it just seems to be getting worse and worse. So sad.

A night.

A Night of absolutely no sleep calls for a gigantic pot of coffee the next morning. Poor little leilani was up all night in our bed coughing. When she finally did fall asleep she took so much of the bed it was pointless to even try, cause I knew she would be waking up in the next 10 minutes again from coughing.

I have a meeting to prepare for tonight, hopefully I will even make it through my day. So tired :)
My house is dirty.

Monday, February 9, 2009

I just don't understand

I don't understand why when bad things happen it's always all in the same week or day or really close in time. It's like something is purposely trying to push you right over a cliff. I'm pretty much just venting. Ahhhh....

It is seriously only Monday and today was bad enough and now it just got topped off with a rotten cherry. Whatever, i'm going to bed...


I have been having this urge to get out of my house, go far away with a tent, a gas stove, some food, and my family and camp. I just want to get away from the noise, and constant neediness of this world. I don't really know if that sounds selfish or not, but that's what I want to do.

Just go to Mendocino and go camping. It would be so much fun and I would have time to breath and be Amber for a little bit.

Can't wait till summer, it will be so much fun...

Friday, February 6, 2009


Anxiety is like the worst possible thing. As for my luck, I get it pretty much everytime I step outside. Sometimes it's so bad I just don't leave, other times I just feel anxious the entire time I'm gone. I really don't know why it has gotten so bad. I hate it...ahhh sometimes I just think it would be better to never leave my house...

Wednesday, February 4, 2009

Magic Erasers

Magic Erasers are seriously the best things ever invented. I was doing my dishes today, and I got water on the window sill so I went to wipe it off and there was this nasty black sticky stuff. Like airborne grease landed there or something. Anyways, I got out my handy dandy magic eraser and just wiped it along there and wahlah it cleaned right up. So i decided to do the entire kitchen. I cleaned my counters, walls, stove, window sills, appliances, I even cleaned my floor. It felt really good when I was done, too bad, tomorrow is another day and it will once again be dirty.

P.S. I had no idea grease could get in so many places. It's kind of nasty, it's like its airborne then just lands wherever. Can you believe we eat that. That is so gross...kind of makes me want to just eat vegetables raw and thats it....well and other things that don't need to be cooked, like ice cream. Okay i'm to bed...hopefully another full night of sleep without kids, or odd moments of waking up for no reason.

I Miss my little little ones...

A full night of sleep

Tuesday, February 3, 2009

Hair Selling???

I was just browsing the internet killing time and I came upon this website
Who knows how legit it is, but I was looking and it's like a site where people sell their hair. It says that some sells for like thousands of dollars. I think that is so crazy. People selling hair, wouldn't it be nicer to just donate it....This world....

Monday, February 2, 2009

New Blog

I made a new blog, it pretty much is only the poems I write, mostly for my own, go back a view later pleasure, but you can all look at it too...


One of my favorite things.

So on sat. it was my nephew's first birthday party. I was supposed to make a Winnie the pooh cake but Michaels was out of pans, so instead I ended up making a soccer ball because his dad is like super soccer player. Anyways this is what it turned out like.

That would be my third cake I have made and decorated. My first one was Cameron's car cake which unfortunately I don't have a picture of and then there was Leilani's princess cake.
This year for Cameron's birthday I want to make him a firetruck cake and maybe for Leilani's birthday I'll make her a princess castle cake. Cake making is probably one of the things I enjoy most, Oh and just baking in general. It's one of those things that make my heart happy.

Until next time...