My Heavenly Father

I got the privelage of taking Mom and Dad Christian to the airport on Monday morning at six a.m. The ride on the way back was quiet and calm, a perfect time to have a conversation with God. This might sound a little weird but I'm going to say it anyways.
While I was driving I was praying out to God, asking him to give me direction for life, take this situation we are in and make it into something so much better. This is the revelation I got out of our conversation.

When Cameron is kicking and screaming because he wants to do things his way we will gently pick him up and take him into a whole nother environment so he will stop and listen to us. I have been a Christian for two and a half years now, and the entire time I have done things on my time, in my way and wasn't really following God's will for my life. ( I guess you could say) I was doing all the good Christian things on the outside, I just wasn't really listeing to God and his plans for my life. In a sense I was pretty much kicking and screaming. God revealed to me that what he did was pick me up and take me out of the environment i was in because I was not listening to him, he has now taken all my worldy things away from me and has completely got my attention. I am here in a different situation and ready and willing to listen to my heavenly father who knows what is best for me.
That conversation on the way home from the airport brought so much peace into my life at this hectic moment. God has something sooo much better for me I just need to be willing to listen and to follow his direction.

Grateful Day #2

My five things I'm grateful for today:
1. My mom said she might be able to add me to her gym membership for $15 and she said she would even pay for it.
2. Once again my kids both took naps like champs and with no hassle
3. I got to sit down and read Mere Christianity for 30 minutes with no interruptions
4. I got to eat ice cream :)
5. I wanted Salmon looked in the freezer and had salmon :)

Starting something new...

I just read a little article on this lady that started a journal and everyday wrote five things that she was grateful for each day. She said it has changed her outlook and her attitude. Since i've been completely in the dumps lately I thought I would try it out. So this will be my journal...

Day #1 Five things I'm grateful for today
1. The weather was quite nice out
2. My kids both took naps without a fight
3. I got to make white chocolate chip macodamian nut cookies
4. My kids went to bed wonderfully
5. My oh so very wonderful forgiving husband for still loving me even if I'm a poop head sometimes...

( I feel better already :) at least a tiny tiny bit )

P.S. I just finished a book by Max Lucado called Traveling Light. It was really good. The entire book was based on Psalm 23 and every chapter was about a verse and what it truly meant. It was nice to read...

This thing we call life...

Life....How would you describe it? Wonderful? amazing? full of dissapointment? Crazy?

The past month or so I feel like my life has been turned upside down, completely turned upside down. It seems that no matter what, things just keep getting a little more difficult. I realized, after quite a few days of non stop tears, that no matter how hard I cry and no mater how hard I kick my feet and scream things really are not going to go the way I plan them to.
God has control over my life, I do know that for sure, and I know that he has plans for us. Maybe he needed to take away all we had, so he can do something completely different with us. (When I say all we had, that just seems so weird cause its like all material stuff, which really isn't important anyways, even though its nice and convienent to have)

Today while we were driving to San Fransisco I was thinking about where we were headed (Life wise) and I turned to James and said, "Well honey, we have nothing so we might as well just go into mission work" He kind of looked at me like I was crazy, but the way I look at it, we really have nothing to lose right now. No house, no car, we are saving money so it seems like the perfect time :)

I wish God would just let me know what he is going to do, what his plans are. I'm not good at sitting and waiting, I'm not good at having to depend on other people, I'm not good at not having control over my life.

Everything will happen in God's time, I know that, I just really need to patience to except it.

I will try to write more often, I know its been a while, and I miss writing, things have just been a little crazy lately.

Until next time...

Its been quite a while...

but what can I say it's been quite a life the past few weeks. I really don't have anything to say, just wanted everyone to know I'm still here and someday hopefully soon I'll have something meaningful to say!

Until then....