emotions

The ability for my emotions to change at a blink of an eye is quite amazing and annoying at the same time. I can go from feeling good and motivated to depressed and sad. Sometimes there really is no good reason for the change. I guess it comes along with being pregnant sometimes.
On another note, hopefully we will be able to find a new place to live within the next two months so I can finally feel like my life is getting back to normal. This last year has been so hard and so unorganized. I am such an organized person that to have the comfort and stability of life changed so fast and so drastically changed me a lot. I love my in-laws but can't wait to have my own place, with my own shower and own bedroom and my kids to have their own bedrooms and life to just get back to semi-normal. It's just one thing I am looking forward to in 2010!! Can't wait...

Until next time...

2010

It has officially been way too long since i have posted something. Life got so busy with school, and children and church, ect. I miss writing so to add another thing to my 2010 To do list I am going to attempt to write on here more often. The end of 2009 was very hectic and life just seems sometimes to get crazy! As you all know we are expecting another precious life due the end of May. We get to find out (hopefully) what we are having on the 12th of this month. School is out until the 19th, but I am going to be taking all online classes, therefore I will pretty much be connected to my computer for 5 months.
This year, I decided we needed to eat healthier, not so much processed, boxed food, not as much fast food and just healthier food in general. Today was day #1 after grocery shopping last night. First off, buying food that is good for you costs more money than food that is contained in a box :) Second, my kids don't seem very happy about the lack of macaroni and cheese, sugary cereal, pop tarts, and the likes.
This morning it was plain yogurt with raspberries, blueberries and granola. I also gave them each a half of banana. The banana was all they ate. Cameron ate a few bites of the yogurt and said it was rotten and leilani didn't even touch it. Hopefully they will get use to the lack of sugar in their diet. Lunch consisted of whole wheat english muffin topped with shredded cheese, ham and pineapple to make little pizzas. They did eat those without complaint. Dinner will be chicken, cabbage and rice.
Hopefully lazy Amber will not kick back in and the process of cooking good food will not fail.

Until next time...

Birds

While I was driving home from school the other evening I saw birds flying and I thought what amazing creatures.  If the bird that is leading gets tired or just needs to fall back another bird will come and jump up and take his place.  Could you imagine, if we were tired, or hurting or just needed to take a break and someone jumped in for us.  That would be awesome.   If we could just be birds, or as cool as birds!!

 

“Dear God make me a bird so I can fly far far away!”

Ibuprofen

While I had a massive migraine yesterday I was attempting to drive down the road when i saw a homeless man sitting on the corner.  I then started thinking to myself, I wonder if homeless people get to get some Tylenol or ibuprofen when they get headaches.  Then it escalated to, “I wonder if people in third world countries have medicine for headaches?”  “Maybe they use herbs!”, “I wonder who thought to take an herb first for a headache?”  Finally my brain started to really hurt, worse than before, and I just thanked Jesus that I did have Ibuprofen when I have headaches. 

Today, it’s weird to think that some people don’t have what we think is a necessity.  I would probably go crazy if I didn’t have Tylenol when I got a headache. Just to think, what would I do if I grew up not even knowing Tylenol was around?  hhmmm…it’s kind of weird to think about things like that.

 

 

Until Next Time….

Little Women

I can’t wait till Leilani is older and she can do this cute little book.  I remember when Suzanne showed me her older one and then she posted something about it on her blog.  This is so cute, and it’s always good for little girls to know how to behave properly.  It just seems like such a cute book. 

 

Until Next Time….

The past few months

 

So I've been in school for 3 weeks now and It’s amazing.  I love it so much, the interaction with adults, the learning.  I feel like I am finally being useful.  (I know staying at home is being useful but I just started feeling unmotivated and maybe even a little worthless.)  I know it sounds dumb!  Anyways, I’ve gotten A’s on everything I’ve done so far, so I’m feeling pretty good.  Math word problems suck but hey it’s only a section of a chapter.  Psychology is really interesting. I learn a lot of things I don’t really agree with but it’s okay I have to take what is good and leave what is not.  Human services…I love that class, it is so interesting, I am even thinking about majoring in Social Work, but I can’t go to William Jessup with that major so I might have to stay with Psych. if I want to go to that private college.  I have to make an appointment with the advisors there and maybe they will be able to help me, with which direction I should go for what I want to do. 

I love leading the care team at church, it gets overwhelming sometimes but just knowing I am helping someone makes it all worthwhile.  We just got done collecting backpacks for Foster Kids and my goal was 50 and we have more than that.   Thank you Jesus.  Right now I’m trying to get a harvest carnival for Halloween put together, so I’m praying for enough help so the kids don’t have to get candy from houses they can come and do activities at the church. 

I’ve been pretty busy, but I feel good.  I still have my emotional days, but I think it’s just cause I am Amber and that’s how it is. 

I’m going to try to write on this thing at least once a week.  I miss blogging…

 

 

Until Next Time!!!

My Classes

1. Psychology 1A

2. Math 52

3. Intro to Human Services

4. Counseling 10

 

I am so excited, they are all subjects I really like so it will hopefully be pretty easy!!

Getting ready to start school

I am starting school in August and I am so excited.  I feel like I am taking this giant step forward and not just sitting where I’m at.  Cameron is also going to start doing pre school, well at home with me, so I am excited about that too.  Our days will be full of fun things to do, and I just love to watch my kids learn it makes me feel good and I know it makes them feel good too.  I will hopefully write more soon, I feel like I have been so busy lately even though I also feel like I’m bored…haha

 

Until Next time…

My Heavenly Father

I got the privelage of taking Mom and Dad Christian to the airport on Monday morning at six a.m. The ride on the way back was quiet and calm, a perfect time to have a conversation with God. This might sound a little weird but I'm going to say it anyways.
While I was driving I was praying out to God, asking him to give me direction for life, take this situation we are in and make it into something so much better. This is the revelation I got out of our conversation.

When Cameron is kicking and screaming because he wants to do things his way we will gently pick him up and take him into a whole nother environment so he will stop and listen to us. I have been a Christian for two and a half years now, and the entire time I have done things on my time, in my way and wasn't really following God's will for my life. ( I guess you could say) I was doing all the good Christian things on the outside, I just wasn't really listeing to God and his plans for my life. In a sense I was pretty much kicking and screaming. God revealed to me that what he did was pick me up and take me out of the environment i was in because I was not listening to him, he has now taken all my worldy things away from me and has completely got my attention. I am here in a different situation and ready and willing to listen to my heavenly father who knows what is best for me.
That conversation on the way home from the airport brought so much peace into my life at this hectic moment. God has something sooo much better for me I just need to be willing to listen and to follow his direction.

Grateful Day #2

My five things I'm grateful for today:
1. My mom said she might be able to add me to her gym membership for $15 and she said she would even pay for it.
2. Once again my kids both took naps like champs and with no hassle
3. I got to sit down and read Mere Christianity for 30 minutes with no interruptions
4. I got to eat ice cream :)
5. I wanted Salmon looked in the freezer and had salmon :)